What is happening to ME?!

27th July 2009

2009-07-27T09:14:00.002+08:00

Good morning all readers. I didnt blog for a long long time. Sorry for that. Many things happened for the past few months, good and bad.... However there are many things that I cannot share because I'm a national servicemen. Things are getting better nowadays compare to the past few weeks of high tension and stress. Thank God for all the good things that brighten my days and the bad things that allow me to see how far away I am from being Christ-like.

Last night my sister was sick because she was overly stressed and went to the hospital. Thank God that her organs and everything is good and healthy. Stress is something that most singaporean will face and it had not cause only damage to oneself but to people around too. When one is stressed, they tend to only care about what they are doing and don't wish to be disturb.

Father Tom : "Go away, I'm very stress with my work! Go play with the toilet seat!"
Son Jerry : ( was excited but now depressed ) "Okay father......."
( son Jerry then walked to the toilet with a pair of heavy feet. Sitting down beside the toilet bowl, son Jerry cried as he play the toilet seat. )
Son Jerry: "I just want him to smile at me..." sob sob sob

Stress happens. I need more time to do my work! If i don't do this I will fail! Tomorrow how?!?! how!?! I have work to take care, I have my family take care, I got so many!!! SO HEAVY!

O Lord, my strength and my fortress, my refuge in time of distress. (Jeremiah 16:19)

Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light. (Matthew 11: 28-31)

Can any of you by worrying add a single hour to your span of life? If then you are not able to do so small a thing as that, why do you worry about the rest. (Luke 12:25-26)

Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid. (John 14:27)

My presence will go with you, and I will give you rest. (Exodus 33:14)

When I called, you answered me; you made me bold and stouthearted. (Psalm 138:3)

4may09

2009-05-04T06:25:00.002+08:00

It been awhile since I last really blogged...

As my dad continue to challenge God's love and His greatness, as swine flu start killing and spreading to Europe, I find myself losing my directions. I start having the views that since God has already planned for everything, His will WILL be done, ain't I just like a puppet? My thoughts and my actions and the outcome. Did God plan for it to happen? Or God allow it to happen? For there is a difference. Saying God plan for it to happen its saying that everything is by God, God planned that you will choose this, you will become like.. Saying God allow it to happen its saying that we choose to go this way, and you will become like this because God allow it to happen. So the question is DOES GOD TAKE PART IN DECISION MAKING? or God doesn't but just intervene at times?

I have a feeling that God allow us to make our own decisions just that when its super BIG decisions that will affect God's work, God will intervene. I don't think God plan for us to sin but He allow it to happen. This shows that we make our own decisions.

What to do in life?

To do my best in everything for God wants use to play our part well.

"The foremost is, 'Hear, O Israel! The Lord our God is one Lord; and you shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your soul, and with all your mind, and with all your strength.' "The second is this, 'You shall love your neighbor as yourself.' There is no other commandment greater than these." (NAS, Mark 12:28-31)

Love God
Love others.

God said to Moses,
Exodus19:
⁵ Now if you obey me fully and keep my covenant, then out of all nations you will be my treasured possession. Although the whole earth is mine, ⁶ you will be for me a kingdom of priests and a holy nation.' These are the words you are to speak to the Israelites."

^{Keep the commandment}

God's treasured possession.
How good will you treat and take care of your treasured possession? How much more will God take good care of His treasured possession...

2009-04-14T18:38:00.000+08:00

For you I will.......

12 April 09

2009-04-12T19:58:00.002+08:00

Easter Sunday! Today Jesus risen from dead and defeated hell as He has said.

I'm lacking of things to blog about!!! aiya!

22march09

2009-03-22T13:56:00.004+08:00

HEHE. finally blogged after a month. I must say within this 31 days i was quite busy in camp! My In-Charge ORD and he handed down his duty to me. So I'm the IC now. But the thing is, I have no man under my direct orders now. Although I give orders to the platoon guys. BUT I dont have like personal assistant like that. HAHA. I want a personal assistant! I did so many things myself! I think cannot complain so much about camp life. my life is quite fortuned compare to many.

21feb09

2009-02-21T20:48:00.004+08:00

I just woke up from my long nap. super tired. Shifted my office and stuff on friday. From 9am the shifting starts till like 2am in the morning. then saturday we continued at 9am to 12 pm plus plus.

Friday, I was so busy that i don't even had the time to eat lunch. so i only had my dinner/supper at 1am plus plus. just 2 cups of instant noodles. how sad. slept in the office floor. the design is bad. took away my bunk. through the night ppl kept coming in and ask for stuff! and they HAVE to switch on the lights! ITS NOT PITCH DARK! we tried to carry a bullet proof shield. so 4 person were dragging it because it SO SO SO HEAVY! i think its more than 500kg. I'm one of the 4. eye powerers of 8++ just stand around. when i called for help.. only 1 came to help! The rest just stay and use their eyes
as we try to let the shield drop to my side, it was SOO HEAVY. my whole face turned red and I could break my back and die just like that. I shout and scold in a very fierce tone. FINALLY they get their butts moving and help me to support.

very busy... very tired.. very hungry.

Sat, finally finish almost everything... wash up.. called a cab... and i came home....

19feb09

2009-02-19T19:44:00.001+08:00

Ben n Jerry ice cream in my freezer!

18feb09

2009-02-18T18:25:00.001+08:00

back pain! whole right side of my back kinda numb when i climb stairs! argh.
eat more potato chips!

17feb09

2009-02-17T23:54:00.002+08:00

Went jogging today after I reached home... Jog around my estate... I think 4 to 5km... Not bad. Speed is quite constant.. not slow... and best thing is my back didn't ache! Hope it will fully recover.. Even though the doctor say it wont recover.... hahaha!

Reached home, dad cooked 'his style' porridge- Sardine, onions, preserved veg, cabbage and grains all mixed together.

BSF's material is good!

Friday is the big shift in camp! hope my back wont die on me... hundreds of loads to carry! hundreds of instructions to give!

Good night.

14feb2009

2009-02-14T23:36:00.004+08:00

Happy Valentine's day to all readers.

Things for every readers to ponder.

Mum: How can we find peace? We find peace when we put down all the troubles and burdens in our hearts.

Son: So mum, We have to put it somewhere right? So where do we put these troubles and burdens?

Mum: (Speechless)

The End.

1Peter5:7
Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you.

Matthew 11:28-30
"Then Jesus said, "Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you. Let me teach you, because I am humble and gentle, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke fits perfectly, and the burden I give you is light."

2Corinthians12:10
That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardship, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

Romans12:1-2
Therefore, I urge you, brothers, in view of God's mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God - this your spiritual act of worship. Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is - his good, pleasing and perfect will.

11feb09

2009-02-12T00:13:00.002+08:00

Benjamin Buttons. good movie. =) free sitting, Siwei free ticket from his company. 2hours plus plus show. good good.

10feb09

2009-02-10T23:19:00.002+08:00

Hey all! I have been really busy with.. hmmm... watching friends. HAHAHA! I got home, I do my stuff.. then i watch friends.. was kinda addicted to it until i had a wake up call. Then kinda control myself from being controlled by the show.

Something happened in office today. Got scolded for nothing! Vulgarities right onto my face. Because he jumped into conclusion that I didnt do the job. But I did the job, its just that a person with itchy finger open the box out of curiosity then broke the seal and never lock it the box. And SO, I got scolded for that.

As my mind and thoughts start to roll, I found a reason for him to do this to me. The reason is that he don't trust me. IF he does, he will say, 'Hey, the box is opened. Who opened it?' INSTEAD OF, "Larry! *&^!@(!@(#*@ since when did I *#&@( tell you to put a seal on the box and lock it?!"

Shouldnt go deep into this. sensitive stuff.

My mum is not putting an effort to sleep early. sigh~

Luke9:23- Then he said to them all," If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me"

Philippians3:8- What is more, I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake i have lost all things. I consider than rubbish, that I may gain Christ

1stFeb2009

2009-02-02T00:47:00.002+08:00

Today is 1st of Feb. I'm very happy. Jan is finally over! 1 mth nearer to my ORD.

Today had family gathering with my relatives. Lao Yu Sheng. The restaurant served not nice food. Then went over to cousin Suat's place then went to have dinner.

Dinner at Crab Party. My treat. 116dollars for 2 crabs 6 man tou and tea. It was really really GOOD. Tomorrow is another book in day. I'm starting to dread booking in even though i'm 8 to 5! Ought to be slap.

Many things in my brain...

23Jan09

2009-01-23T18:04:00.003+08:00

Today I went to the bank, get my new atm card, went to unblock my ez link card, and went to buy a new wallet.

I'm am going to change my blog song! new song now! John Mayer - Waiting On The World To Change. Enjoy..

20Jan09 PART2

2009-01-20T22:43:00.002+08:00

Okay. My exciting day didn't end after my previous post. haha! Let me say the complete story of my day.

This morning was SUPER and i mean really busy in the morning. After that, thinking that i deserve a good lunch, i realise my wallet is missing. the content about my wallet is in my previous post. Ok. Then i reached home. I want to prepare something good for dinner. My fried noodle and egg must be special stuff. Lots of ingredients, lots of effort to prepare. Then start cooking. great, my eggs with crab sticks and ham looks good. Then i want to fry my noodles. soften the noodles. then, gas low. my fire is as good as a lighter. I cook with my innovative way, us the microwave then take out stir stir then put back... again and again. then alright. done.. taste a bit. yum yum. not bad. wash the frying pan and stuff... floor oily. wanted to mop the floor. used wrong detergent. ultra soapy. wash the kitchen. make my nice hot coffee. done. bring up to my table. spill the coffee. clean up the mess. said grace, as i start to eat, sms came. Ginnette remind me there is bible study material meeting going to start soon. I still remember last night. but today totally forgot! Then i rush my dinner in less than 2mins. throw the rest of my food. then rush out of the house. yelled that i'm going out. then left. Reached church. feeling messy. wasnt able to concentrate much. put my phone on no sound, no vibrate. Dad called twice. i wasnt aware. Sister smsed that they were very worry about me.. where am i... i replied. and one thing. I HATE making anyone worried about me. ESPECIALLY my family.

I'm glad that I'm still positive and really smiling. BUT the other side of me is protesting.. Struggle between both sides. UNcomfort zone. I will make the positive side the victorious side. no worries.

DONE!

20Jan09

2009-01-20T18:48:00.002+08:00

Today is a interesting day!

Why?

I lost my wallet in camp... hahaha.... around 100dollars cash, 11B, base pass, ez link, POSB debit card, and some other cards. I called to cancel my debit card. I have to pay 50dollars for a new 11B and 50dollars for a new base pass. My ez link has around 30++ dollars in it and my wallet cost around 40++ dollars. So in total, i lost 270dollars ++ ! hahaha! Even before I'm getting my ang pao money, I spend them all already... maybe more than my ang pao money. HAHA.. My reaction was quite interesting. haha.. I didnt panick at all. All I'm thinking about is the trouble of making police report, go down to depot road to get my new 11B... SO TROUBLESOME! haha... Yes... what a interesting day. Went to make police report before I reached home. Now just need to wait to go depot road when my 11B is ready, to get my new debit card from the bank, to get a new ez link card and to get a new wallet.

I was telling Jialin that since its a new chinese lunar year, a new chapter of my life, so MAYBE God says, why dont you have a new wallet and new cards? hahaha! I'm so positive... hahaha!

Tonight my dinner will be prepared by myself! Menu for tonight: Fried instant noodle and egg.

Last night driving, I drove out to the road. A taxi nearly hit my car. I'm on the main road, the taxi dashed out from the side road... With alert instructor and my fast reflexes, no collision happened. haha!

I'm hungry.

14 Jan 2009

2009-01-15T00:02:00.000+08:00

Today I woke up kinda late and was not able to have breakfast with my dad before going into camp. So head to camp with an empty stomach. Once I reach camp, I get myself updated with the things that are happening, since I'm on leave one monday and tuesday. whahaha... Then I went to Spec Mess to buy breakfast! Noodles, egg, chicken wing and a chicken bun! hehehe. Then military work! Not able to discuss...

After a few hourss......

My friend fetch me to a bus stop near my place, and i took bus to festival market. Buy stuff and cut my hair. Every month cut once! The indian barber shop was trying to earn more money during this period of chinese new year. Additional 2 dollars! I refuse to cut there. haha! Normally I will somewhere else to cut. 7dollars! haha =)

Dinner! Had fried rice. (rice with ham, carrots, ikan billi and egg fried all together). Had big big big 18cmX10cm fish otah. fried prawns, fried fish and canned dry dates fish.

To my cousin Suat Lynn -- HAHAHA! march aunty! hahaha!

To Ginnette -- You are Miss Superwoman. Smile!

To JiaLin -- Hope to see you online! Enjoy ur dinner! ( SG time - 12.17am ) =D

To Wang Jun -- Don't cabal so much! I spam your MSN lag you out! haha

Good night! Everyone. Thanks for remembering my birthday. =)

13 jan 09

2009-01-13T01:26:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday to myself

Happy Belated Birthday to Shuying

Take Care Jia Lin, May God protect you and bless you.

12Jan was a very fun and memorable day.

Passed JiaLin my harddisk. She wanted to go Ikea, so I tag along. We had lunch, swedish meat balls and i had an extra cheese cake. She bought cookie jars, I bought a custom made lamp. Had a real fun and enjoyable time.

Went for dinner with Mong Lim and Mark. Had 2 crabs, 2.5kg in total, $38.00/1kg. chill and butter milk crab... VERY nice... Nicest crab i ate so far. had a bowl of rice, 3 big fried man tuo. Black pepper deer meat. then we went to chomp chomp share a HUGE cup of sugarcane, $5 worth fried hokkien prawn noodles and BBQ stingray. Then we went to coffee bean for drinks...

SO BLOATED AND FULL. Eat till high. I'm so full that i can feel my ribs poking my organs!

Happy Birthday to myself

Happy Belated Birthday to Shuying

Take Care Jia Lin, May God protect you and bless you.

8 Jan 2009

2009-01-08T08:15:00.000+08:00

Feels good today. Woke up, had breakfast, one of my favourite fried wanton noodles. Reached camp early, help the cleaner aunty put some toilet paper in the toilets. Feels good.

Shaked hand with my friends, wishing them happy new year.

Deleted the past 2 post. unhappy stuff shouldnt stay.

haha. =D

1st Jan 2009

2009-01-01T13:58:00.000+08:00

Happy new year to all readers. Its been 18 days since I last updated my blog. 2008 was a amazing year.

11jan2008, I was enlisted to army and entered the commando unit. I pushed myself very hard and wanted to be one of the best in my commando unit. Indeed, I was one of the top 20% and was selected to go into commando leader course. However, I was not able to continue my training as a commando due to my injuries. I have wrist and spine injury. And so, I was transfer to the navy. As I was injured, there are my things that I cannot do during my training in navy. I felt that I'm kinda useless and was a raging lion trap in a cage. I prayed that I will be remove from that navy training unit and be a simple clerk. At least I wont feel useless and I only have to work from 8am to 5pm, good life. I prayed for 3months, nothing happened and I finished the course. I was disappointed in God. When I proceed on to the operational unit, I was removed from the rest and asked to be the next CQMS - Company Quarter Master Sergeant. (Praise God.) - look at His plan, if I were removed from training unit, I will never be a CQMS. Because I cannot really discuss military things, I will not go further.

God had proven me that He have a plan for everything and through all these tidal waves in my life, I learnt to trust God. I left HOGC and join Bethany Presbyterian Church this year. And every night, I'll thank God for bringing me to BPC for its like one of the BEST place to be and friends in BPC are amazingly marvelously fantastic pom pi pi.

Highlight of the year 2008 - BPC YA Camp
The best part of the camp is WUTS. Worship Under The Stars.
Next best, UBIN cycling trip- Where we entered a swamp and got ourselves dirty.

Now, YEAR 2009
My ORD year. 10 nov 2009

My 2009 Goals
1st ) Complete studying the bible from cover to cover.
2nd) Class 3 driving license
3rd) Finish reading Book Of Knowledge book A

Equip myself with Word of God, skills and knowledge.
Not bad not bad.

Done blogging. 2009 - ORD year.

13 december 2008

2008-12-13T21:37:00.000+08:00

Hello! The year 2008 is coming to an end! I welcome year 2009 warmly as my ORD date is visible in the 2009 calendar. Christmas is coming, I'm excited about it. hohoho

nothing much to write. Thats all!

9 december 2008

2008-12-09T21:12:00.001+08:00

Hi all! Today is what I call LingHong-Is-Violent-Day. I was tearing down 2 tentages. Then, BILLIONS!!! BILLIONS!!! of black and red ants started crawling out from the tentages. At first, I tried to be good, gently sweeping them off, making sure that they don't get killed by me. AND THEN! one huge red ant bite me... EXPLOSION! my 'gentle balloon' pop. Its like full moon appear and a werewolf took its shape. I found myself whacking the metal poles filled with ants against the grass like a mad man. Killing every ants on sight. Lizards and spiders join in the fun. My friend tortured and killed a lizards- tear off its tail then its head. Matured 18 actions.

Days ago, a praying mantis was found inside my pocket so i decided to make this special mantis as my pet. 2 days ago, this mantis was nowhere to be found! Its gone!! Maybe my cousin's kids open the bottle out of curiosity. Today, the praying mantis was loitering on my room's door! haha.

tmrw...... 11mths to O.R.D.

7 december 2008

2008-12-07T00:30:00.000+08:00

Its 12.30am now... However, instead of being tired and dying, I'm wide awake! I slept at 4am on Friday night due to filming 6 scenes of the movie Ransom. Its a evangelistic movie that my church decided to make. Only until Friday then i realise why movies take years to make. We took like 8hours for 6scenes! There was one time where we have a shot where the character is breathing loudly and we had millions of NG due to the loud cars speeding on the road.

I was wondering, who am I going to spend Christmas with this year? My family doesn't celebrate Christmas... How sad...

I received a call and it goes, "Larry! do you remember where the fire hose coupling is? Its gone!"
...oh my goodness.... where can it be?! my my my..... a few hours later, I contacted my ic... And its found! its in the store, mixed up with some other stuff... haha

3 days then it will be 11months to my ORD. Life is going to be exciting after I'm free from national service. Going overseas to study... I can't imagine how will it be like! But I guess the smile on my face when I take my pink ic will be wider than ever before. =D

so many thoughts but little to share...

Good night readers...

4 december 2008

2008-12-04T23:41:00.000+08:00

Hello!

Today I had much to do in camp... Help fix the door lock, do some store list stuff, help assist the RT, help people to do some stuff. After that, I had dinner with Amos, Jialin, Grace and Ginnette at a place call The Black Sheep Cafe. And what happened is that i broke their glass cup with my powerful index finger after talking about the Winx Club Movie.

This week is ultra busy week. I'm glad that its Friday tomorrow. My eyes are weary...

Womanizer, womanizer, womanizer....... The 'in' songs nowadays... Unfortunately, I don't know how to appreciate such kinda music. Popular songs genre seems to be changing along with the timeline... Years ago, it was blues then rock then alt rock then techno... now 'new style' pop. I often observe youngster blasting music loudly into their ear drums. Sometime I will say, ' wa.. siao man.. deaf!'

hahaha..

2 december 2008

2008-12-02T20:19:00.000+08:00

Today... Things in camp was not very smooth. As I leave my office, I gave dad a call as he usually fetch me home from work. It is quite convenient for him to make a detour to fetch me after work. However, he had some stuff in jurong today. Initially, he told me to travel home by myself. After awhile, he called telling me that he will be able to reach my location in 30mins and asked if I want to wait for him. And so I waited... 1hour and 40mins later, my dad finally arrived. I stood in the bus stop for 1hr 40mins. My mp3 died after 40mins of waiting. My mood wasnt good. I exploded a few times in camp... And I exploded again through the phone when my mum keep asking me the same question over and over and over again. I wasnt happy with myself for yelling at my mum.

what a day.... I disappoint myself by losing control of my temper and words that came out of my mouth.

damn it.

1 december 2008

2008-12-01T19:45:00.000+08:00

Exams for most uni people are over. 5 weeks holiday for them! I wonder when I will enjoy this kinda long holidays... less than 1 year more than 10months... However they deserve having holidays more than I do. How can my life as an NSF compare to uni students. They study all day, I wait for things to happen all day. haha.

Enjoy your 5weeks of holidays cousin!! :D

I returned to my office again this morning. I found my area and table in a mess... Must be some kind of tsunami that happened over the weekend. I cant help it but to tidy the whole mess.

Today I was in the sport complex. Sitting down watching those officers playing games. Awhile later, a officer came and sat next to me. He has 2 crabs on his shoulders. I asked him why isn't he playing with the rest. He answered and followed by was a long pause of silence. In my mind I was searching for topics that I can bring out to start a conversation with him. However, there is nothing to begin with... I realised my ability to start a conversation with a stranger is very weak. Should I bring out news that is happening around the world? I think I should have.

Why are we human so weak to uphold what is righteous. We know what should and should not be done. But why do we still do what is not right? -ashamed-

Thats all

29 november 2008

2008-11-29T12:46:00.000+08:00

Recently I keep asking myself, should I or should I not buy a PSP (Play Station Portable). Almost everyone in my camp has a PSP basically to kill time. Time flies when you have a PSP in your hands. However, spending so many time playing is not very healthy. But in an enviroment where everyone is playing, its very hard to read a book or study something. People scream and yell and laugh so loudly as they play PSP games together. I often ask my friends in my camp whether I should buy a PSP and out of ten person i surveyed, ten will say, ' Go! Buy one! ' Its quite interesting what a PSP can do. You can turn it into a camera, use it to go online, watch videos, listen to music, skype, play games. Its like a entertainment mini computer and it cost less than 350 dollars. Well, i'm still thinking because i think that reading book or studying is still a better way to kill time. But books and studying never really work in a gaming enviroment.

My sister went to watch a christian evangelistic musical along with the school that she teaches in. She comment that the students were very rude and were shouting vugarities in the middle of the musical. Because the school is a christian school, some people will assume that all these naughty kids are christians which turn out to be a bad representation of christians. I studied in a buddhist school. Yet many are not buddhist at all. The kids in my school were rebellious. They stuff cakes into residents' mailbox, split saliva at their teachers and make fun of the disable. These actions done by kids from these missionary schools give a very bad reputation of the believers of the religion. Instead of opening doors for people to walk into the religion, they are shutting the doors.

26 november 2008

2008-11-26T18:39:00.000+08:00

A cat is loitering around my block this few days, crying meow meow meow trying to get human's attention. Sister is very irritated and fear the cat will sneak into the house. Years ago a black cat sneaked into my house and 'sayang' my head while i was sleeping. I used to sleep on the floor. The cat should be hungry but sister insist that we must not feed the cat.

meow meow meow.....

My friend is stuck in Thailand now, unable to board the plane due to Thailand State Emergency.
He must be frustrated and praying that he wont be charged AWOL if he is unable to return to Singapore before he's overseas leave expires. HAHA.

Today a Milo dispenser van was indented for navy sports day in my camp. I went over and help myself with 8 cups of ice cool Milo. I was bloated after the 4th cup but its so addictive that i flooded myself with 4 more. SO BLOATED. If someone were to punch me at my stomach, I will become the Singapore first Milo Merlion.

Thats all!

25 November 2008

2008-11-25T23:49:00.000+08:00

Dad said to me this morning, ' You are still not matured in doing things. This can be observed by your little actions like turning the gate's lock once instead of twice and not keeping your room neat at ALL times.'

Turning once or twice can lock the gate. I usually turn once.

I usually mess up the place a little... Then pack the whole place up before I go to bed or when I wake up.

I guess there is still much about my way of doing things to work on.

This is my first post. I intent to keep this blog updated most of the time and alive. i wasted 2 hours finding a blogskin, then i decided to just use the normal one.

Time for bed.